In less than one week, I will have all of my teeth removed. The procedure will be performed under general anesthesia, so I will go to sleep with a mouthful of broken teeth and awaken with an empty mouth! Once the bleeding stops, I will go home with my new set of dentures in place.
Needless to say, as a very anxious person anyway, I'm already on pins and needles!! I can feel the nervousness now centered in the pit of my stomach. I will be a nervous wreck by next Tuesday morning (surgery day).
However, the thing that has me the most nervous is not what you might think. While I realize that any surgical procedure carries risks, I'm not very nervous at all about the procedure itself -- If it's my time to go, then it's my time to go. No, what has me wound up in a ball of anxiety is the 8 hours prior to the surgery.
As I'm sure most of you know, a patient is not to partake of any food or liquid for the eight hours before surgery. The food part is of no concern to me at all, but the inability to consume liquid is! During my routine waking hours, I drink liquid constantly -- juice, water, tea, milk. More importantly, when I'm nervous, I tend to drink even more.
The chief reason I drink more when I'm nervous is that my mouth tends to go dry and that makes it more difficult for me to swallow. Since I have a swallowing difficulty anyway (one of the weird parts of my fibromyalgia), liquid helps to alleviate the situation. But beginning at midnight on Monday, I won't be allowed to make use of my mitigation strategy, hence my anxiety!!
In addition, I'm a bit anxious about what it will feel like to a) have a toothless mouth and b) wear dentures for the first time. That said, if it weren't for the 8-hour prohibition of food/liquid, I don't think I would be anywhere near as anxious as I am.
All this illustrates is how those of us on the autism spectrum hate to have our routines interrupted. When you get down to it, that's the part that has me discombobulated. I'm used to my set daily patterns and as little as the knowledge that one such pattern will be altered for a few brief hours has me tied up in knots.